I place all the blame on my colleagues here at Ballet Austin. I was doing just fine with the Staff Get Moving Challenge idea, and even scheduled my first class for this Sunday. Turbo Kick®. Then I had a conversation with my colleagues Gail and Brooke. Now I’m afraid.

I like to exercise. I feel good after I work out. I love to run. No matter how tired I get, or how much I sweat on a 6 mile run, nobody sees me. I die alone. That’s how I like it. Now I’m worried.

Gail and Brooke probably don’t have any idea how much their comments affected me; comments like, “Turbo Kick® is the hardest class I have ever taken,” and “I am so sore. Every muscle in my body hurts. I was dying!” While I don’t mind pushing my body, I struggle with the intimidation factor of doing this in a group setting.

Seeds of doubt poison my mind so easily…. “What if I look stupid because I don’t know what I’m doing? What if I can’t keep up? What if I look totally out of place? What if my sweat drips everywhere? What if a BCS student has a “Staff Sighting” and takes my picture for social media? What if…?”

Between now and Sunday I have to conquer my fear, and I will conquer it! I am saying to myself, “Just do it! Commit!” I am going to attend the BCS Turbo Kick® class on Sunday at 2:00. I have butterflies in my stomach. That “do you really want to do this?” feeling is nagging me. Of course I know it is not based on anything aside from a fear of the unknown.  So I won’t chicken out. I will go. I will not die.

Want to join me? You could be rewarded for your attendance!